to feel (two drabblets)

Reccers Notes: Before there was Chloe and Davis on the show as we know them now, there were Chloom fans who saw the possibilities. These longing drabblets got me shipping before I ever took a look at Smallville (actually, when I was forsworn to never watch it). It may very well be the first step to addiction!

by iliana1 at her livejournal
385 words, pg, preseason.

She just knew that he made her feel.

He made her feel…


she searched for a word and came up with nothing. Words were trade, her currency, they always had been so the blank was more then disquieting. She just knew that he made her feel.



It was different from the way Clark slotted into her life, her soul. He was different. He had a way of looking at her as if she was something precious, to be admired and touched with awe and she wondered if that was how Lana had felt under Clark’s gaze.



Jimmy had never made her feel that way and the thought gnawed at her uncomfortably. Jimmy had never made her feel half of what she should for someone she was about to marry and she knew she had to end the farce soon. To cut him free and herself too.



There were only so many emotions she could juggle, only so many feelings she could feel and she wasn’t prepared to give up on the shades Davis brought to her life and she had never been able to give up on Clark. This though strengthened her resolve. Jimmy was better out of it. Out of the tangle of emotions she couldn’t govern and out of her life.



***



She looked up, pleasure brightening her eyes and colouring her cheeks and she wondered if she had heard right, “what?”



He looked up at her through dark lashes, large hands cradling his mug of coffee and his voice was low when he spoke.



“Safe,” he repeated. “You make me feel safe.” A wry smile pulled at his lips, “which is bizarre as I barely know you.”



“It’s not bizarre.” Her denial was more, far more vehement then she had intended and she checked herself. “It’s not bizarre,” she repeated in a whisper, wondering why the hell it was so important to convince him.



“Maybe not but it’s new.”



Their eyes met and she grinned brightly, blushing when he didn’t look away but tilted his head to look at her more closely.



“And how do I make you feel Chloe?”



She shook her head, “I don’t know.” It wasn’t a lie. He confused her and he must have sensed her hesitance because he laughed softly cutting through the tension.



He had let her off the hook. For now at least.



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