Showing posts with label leapverse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label leapverse. Show all posts

Thursday, February 25, 2010

caveman

Reccing Notes: I pestered paraxdisepink to do another follow-up to Leap and Penance, with another time smut happened.
What she came up with is plot driven and nothing short of a masterpiece. Chloe gets kidnapped by Lex Luthor in the aftermath of a not-argument about the many things she wants to do with Davis. Davis and Clark go to save her in an uneasy truce. Clark gets called on the mind rape; Davis finds Chloe first and it seems that even while the building is destroyed above them... You have read Leap right?
I will harry you into reading this, I will. It is deep and revelatory and deliciously hot.

by paraxdisepink at her lj.
6680 words, from pg-13 to nc-17, post-leap.

He pulled her against him and tried to rub some warmth into her while Clark looked on with a chewing rocks face that made it clear he didn't approve. Chloe's outfit – or lack thereof – probably didn't help. Davis wondered what Clark would do if he had his job, run away and blush every time he had get to someone up off their shower floor?

Chloe I was stupid. That was the first thing he planned on saying when he found her. He'd been meaning to say it since he lost her, when she left his apartment in her nightgown and robe of all things.

“I guess this is one of those times you just need to be alone,” she told him in a voice that had more than a little ice around the edges. Being alone had sounded like a good idea until he heard her car door slam. He was tired and trying to fight off the nagging arousal. He was . . .

It all started when he came home from work and found her waiting for him in his bed, literally laying in wait in bright pink lingerie. He got out of the shower and crawled under the covers and she climbed – no slinked was a better word – on top of him, warm and smelling like Bath and Body something or other.

His response was instantaneous and pretty predictable, a rush of excitement, a throb in his groin, and that helpless drowning feeling when she kissed the tender spot behind his ear and started down the line of his jaw. The hunger was there, in him and in her, but he wrestled against it. He'd been worrying about stuff like this all day in the ambulance. He'd even come home ready to talk about it, as soon as he got some sleep. But now that she caught him off guard it all seemed to come out in a different language. Maybe if he wrote it in Kryptonian she'd get it. She was good at that stuff.

“You know, we don't have to do this so much,” he said as he took her by the shoulders and pulled her away from him. “There's plenty of other things I like doing with you.”

Chloe looked confused in the darkness above him, but decided to laugh it off. “Sleeping with you isn't a chore, Davis.” She ran her hand over his arm where the muscles bulged. “Let's be realistic here.”

Davis turned his head away. Chloe had told him pretty plainly that sex with him was better than sex with Jimmy. Once, she had told him pretty plainly she felt a certain way with him that she didn't feel with Jimmy. He should have been flattered, but deep down he felt more like the monster using some kind of mystical allure to keep the good girl in his clutches than a step up in significant others. Feeling like the monster dulled the hunger somewhat and made it easier when he said, “I'm serious, Chloe. I don't think it hurts to take a step back and let you know this isn't all I'm here for.”

She climbed off him and for the first time after all they'd been through she really did look at him in the moonlight like he was from another planet. “Oh my god, are we having too much hot sex for you, Davis? I didn't realize you were that inhibited.”

“I'm not.” She should know that. There wasn't a place in her apartment or his where they hadn't . . . he didn't want to say 'fucked' but he couldn't call it making love either. That was tender, slow, not always her style. “I'm just trying to do the right thing here.”

That was evidentially the wrong thing to say, not surprising since there wasn't a whole lot right about him. He'd been created to hide a sentient weapon of mass destruction. Chloe pulled the covers over her lap, her shoulders stiffening in the dim light. “Sleeping with me goes against your morals now? What, should we be married? I didn't realize I was sleeping with the religious right.” That was a cheap shot. She told him his being Catholic didn't bother her, but she wasn't done. “Or is this some attempt at romance? 'You're more to me than a vagina.' Thanks, Davis. I'm flattered.”

Davis sighed and rubbed a hand over his eyes. “Come on, Chloe, give me a break here. You know I'd never think that.”

She climbed out of bed and pulled a matching silky pink robe over her shoulders, and if that wasn't a bad enough omen she grabbed her purse and nothing else and he realized she'd driven over here dressed like that. God, what if she got pulled over . . . ? He hoped she had a coat in the car.

“Maybe you'd rather be alone,” she said as she headed for the door. “I think I've done enough damage to your celibacy vow.”

Davis got out of bed after her. He didn't say he didn't want to . . .

“Chloe . . .”

It was too late. She went out the door and started heading down the stairs for the parking lot. Davis let out a long breath and slumped against the hall doorway. Part of him panicked that she wouldn't come back and he wanted to run after her. The rest of him wanted the confusion and frustration to last as long as possible. He'd gotten into a fight with his girlfriend that he couldn't make sense of. He hadn't had this normal of a problem in a long time.

Ten minutes later after he heard her car door slam and saw the flash of headlights he went to the phone and dialed her number. The best thing was to apologize, say he was just tried, and try and explain himself some other time. Her cell phone rang, but the call went to voice mail. That wasn't a good sign. She was pretty annoyed with him, but not pissed off enough not to answer.

The gnawing arousal faded and he went to the front window. He could see the parking lot from his living room and her car was still there. Maybe she was waiting for him to come out. He got his shoes on and hurried down the stairs, and froze at what the poor lighting and a big tree had kept him from seeing.

Her car door was open and Chloe wasn't inside. Davis scanned the scene inside and out. Her purse was there, but her phone was gone. He remembered the headlights he'd seen earlier and the car door he'd heard. This wasn't a mugging. Someone had taken her. How could he be so stupid? He should have watched her get into her car.

The keys were there in the ignition, dangling with keychains in bright mismatched colors like everything else Chloe owned. Davis glanced around. There was no one in the parking lot, no witnesses. Everyone was inside with the blinds pulled shut.

There was no point in going through her purse. Chloe the queen of the digital era wouldn't keep one of those address planners you wrote in. She had a photo of Lois in her wallet though and Davis thanked God aloud when he remembered that she used to date Oliver Queen. Queen could help. He owed him a favor and Chloe's cell phone was on. Queen could have someone locate the signal.

It wasn't until Davis got Clark on the phone instead that he realized why he'd made Chloe so angry. For someone Chloe had never actually been with, Clark had done more than his fair share of damage. Unforgiveable damage. She hadn't said it, but after the way Clark had violated her she was over sensitive to people she cared about deciding what was best for her. If he didn't hurry up and find her he might not get the chance to tell her that wasn't his intention.

Unfortunately Lois wasn't home and Davis had to explain why he needed Oliver Queen's number.

“You lost Chloe?” Clark had that accusatory note in his voice, as though it was his fault. As though it proved something. Clark had known he wasn't good enough and he was going to take the chance to say 'I told you so' without having the balls to actually say it. Davis felt like throwing the phone. Great guy. What did Chloe see in him again?

“I didn't lose her. She's been kidnapped.”

“Outside your apartment. Why didn't you stop them?”

Davis was losing his patience. He wanted to find Chloe, not sit around and play the blame game. “Same reason you didn't stop Chloe from getting infected with that Brainiac Construct. I can't be everywhere at once.”

“You were right there. I don't see how this could have happened.”

He didn't have time for this. Chloe's abductors could be doing God knows what to her by now. His stomach turned. He didn't want to go there. “Look, can you just have Oliver find out where she is? I have to get her back.”

Clark let out a long breath, but to his credit he didn't deliberate. “I'll be right there.”

**

Davis forgot Clark had what Chloe called 'superspeed.' He wasn't exactly mentally present when he had fought – no, killed – Clark in the Fortress. Up until then he'd thought of Clark as a well-meaning bumpkin who had yet to grasp that big city concept of staying out of the other guy's way. Now, he expected an eternity of pacing around his living room and feeling inadequate because he had to call on another guy for help. But all he'd meant to ask for was Oliver's number and a little assistance pinpointing a cell phone signal. Clark was the one who had decided to come over. Given the powers Clark had, Davis would be stupid to say “I don't need you.” This wasn't a time for his ego and after having the Ultimate Destroyer inside him what did he care about being macho? This wasn't a contest to see who tore the most stuff apart between here and wherever Chloe was and deserved her more. Clark didn't want her and even if he suddenly changed his mind Chloe couldn't forgive him for what he had done to her.

Someone pounded on the door in about two heartbeats. Davis opened it and Clark was there in a newer version of his famous red jacket and blue t-shirt. Doomsday had bloodied the old one beating the life out of him.

“You get ahold of Oliver?' Davis asked as he let him in.

Clark nodded and didn't go further than inside the doorway. This wasn't a sit down on the couch and have a beer type of visit.

“Lex took her.”

“Luthor?”

Clark nodded. Davis didn't know much about Lex Luthor, but he knew from what Chloe had told him that the guy was bad news. But on one hand, being abducted by him was better than some thugs off the street. On the other he had the power to cover up his messes and Davis had to keep Chloe from becoming one of those messes.

“He must be trying to get to me.” Clark lowered his head and started to pace. “Back when we were friends I never thought he'd stoop this low and go after the people I love.”

Because everything was about Clark. “What about Chloe's meteor power? What if he wants to study her? Chloe said he's tried that before.” She had blackouts just like him at the time. Her mother compelled her with her own power to kill Lex Luthor one night. She knew what it was not to remember what she'd done, to be terrified of what she could become. The funny thing was, she hadn't told him that until a few weeks ago.

“You think something she wrote in one of her articles pissed him off?”

“I don't know.” Clark looked lost. Was he really destined to save the world? He pulled himself together and said in a stronger voice. “It's not important right now. We have to find out where Lex has taken her. Do you have speed?”

“Some.” Davis was getting faster every day, but he didn't know whether he could match Clark. He could try though. For Chloe he could try. He opened the door. “After you.”

**

They flew through Star City in the darkness, through the streets Davis walked sometimes when the memories got the better of him. Finding Chloe wasn't as simple as locating her cell phone. They found her cell phone. Lex's people had dropped it off at one of his labs, and after wasting an hour sneaking past guards and finding a stealthy way in all they found was a voice mail message.

“If you want Chloe you'll have to follow the breadcrumbs.”

It made Davis sick to admit it, but if he had the monster inside him . . . No. Chloe wouldn't want a monster coming for her; she'd want a man. But as things stood she'd have to settle for two super-powered aliens.

“This is going to turn into a wild goose chase,” Davis turned to Clark in the moonlight. “Clark, she could be hurt.”

Clark's features tightened. The thought had crossed his mind. “We'll get Oliver on it. We'll find all Lex's hideouts and search them one at a time if we have to.”

That wasn't good enough. That could take all night. Days even. “We'll split up. Give me some places and I'll take half. I'm not going to waste time here.”

Clark made the call and Oliver, who admitted to owing him a favor, came back with some locals. Davis put them in his phone and took off running. Code three was for saving lives, no unnecessary passengers. He didn't know what to call this, but as he watched Clark take off in the opposite direction he felt like they were on some sick Easter egg hunt. Whoever found Chloe first proved they were better for her, and the top contenders were the guy sent to Earth to kill everyone and the guy who had as good as raped her.

It was always darkest before dawn, the saying went, and in the pitch blackness of early, early morning Davis did find her first. It was the blackout hour when he would wake up bloody, the nightmare hour when he got the hell out of the ER before the weeping relatives made it in with their questions. If something hellish was going to happen tonight now was the time.

This building was smaller, just a huge brick rectangle in the open ground between Metropolis and Smallville. He thought about going in alone, but he called Clark at the last minute. Maybe they'd never watch the Superbowl together, but when it came to breaking into a Luthorcorp facility two were better than one.

Clark blurred in and scanned the building, and Davis had to admit he'd changed a lot since he'd last seen him at Chloe's dinner party. Some of the farm boy had worn off and more focus and confidence came through. Maybe it was Lois. Maybe she'd done her best to take the 'boy' out of the farmboy. Or maybe it was coming back from the dead. Davis could relate to that.

“Back entrance is unguarded,” Clark said.

Davis looked at him. He used to think of himself as a straight forward guy. The patients wanted to know their chances, he told him. He liked a girl, he told her. But after a few weeks of whirlwind self-discoveries about his origins and his purpose he wasn't willing to take anything at surface value.

“Does that mean it's a trap?”

“It doesn't matter. Lex can't stop me. He's not . . .”

“Me.” Davis finished for him. Clark may as well say it. It was sickly flattering, in a way. No one's ever hurt me as good as you did. Way to get all nostalgic.

Clark nodded, slowly, like he was ashamed. He shouldn't be. Davis was the one who had beaten the life out of him before Chloe's eyes. “When this is over I want you to meet my father.”

Davis blinked. What? Was Clark planning on proposing to him? Bringing him home to meet the family? Or was he planning on taking him up north for a little mind wipe so he would forget Chloe altogether?

“You're Kryptonian,” Clark hurried on. “I need to know your powers won't put anyone in danger.”

Or maybe it was that. Clark still didn't trust him. The feeling was mutual. Never trust a guy who violated the lady in your life. “Right,” Davis shrugged. “But if you don't stop talking and let me go in that building they will be.”

He stalked off and left Clark to follow. It turned out the back door had guards after all, Luthorcorp guys in bullet proof vests and helmets, paramilitary types. It didn't take much to take them out, just a good hit with his above average strength. They'd wake up with a headache, but other than that he didn't worry about them. Davis heard a whoosh of air and realized Clark was behind him. He grabbed another guard further down one of the near black corridors, lifted him off his feet and slammed him against the wall.

“Where's my friend?” his voice was rough.

The guy gulped and his eyes went wide. Clark's innocent baby face might have fooled him at first glance, but one look up into his hard blue eyes told him this guy might just choke the life out of him. Davis believed it, but as much as he didn't want anyone to get hurt he didn't tell Clark to stop. The guy knew something.

“Why should I tell you?” The guy's voice was thin. Not a lot of air got between him and Clark's hand around his throat.

Clark's eyes flashed and for a moment Davis expected them to glow murder-red. He'd never known this side of Clark existed, the real violence, the Kryptonian imposing his will on a primitive human inferior. Chloe always treated him like a naïve child who only did wrong by accident. Maybe she'd never seen this side or maybe there was a monster inside every man when someone he cared about was in danger.

Beams of molten heat shot from Clark's eyes, setting fire to the tapestry above the guard's head. Material like that was easily flammable, a few more seconds and the guy's hair would catch fire. He knew it and his eyes went wider with stark terror. He licked his lips, dry where they hung open.

“Turn right. Go up to the third floor and keep going. Double doors. You'll see it.”

Clark let him go and he slumped to the ground, rubbing his neck and catching his breath. Davis glanced at the burning tapestry above him. “Please tell me you spray water out of eyes too. Chloe's human, if the building itself catches fire –“

Davis didn't finish. He yanked the tapestry off the wall, rolled it up and smothered the flames. The guard was watching him, wild-eyed, and the expression on his face said 'Thank God.' Davis shook his head. Who knew he'd be the good cop.

They turned right and went up a rickety flight of stairs in the dark. They found a set of double doors just like the guard had said. Clark was the one destined to save the world and he'd been sent to this planet to save the day, but there wasn't a power in Heaven or Hell or Krypton itself that could have stopped Davis from crashing through those doors first. They should have taken the time to engineer a plan, some kind of stealthy infiltration like you saw in the movies, but sometimes brute force and desperation was all you needed. Caveman vs. Astronauts, the old conundrum. It was ironic, if you thought about it, but either way Lex wasn't hurting Chloe tonight.

Davis saw her at once, before he saw that the lab was empty. Lex had locked her in some kind of glass cage. There were wires, jars of glowing green liquid, but none of it touched her. She was on the floor with her knees folded under her, hugging that hot pink robe across her chest with her arms. That and the slip beneath was all she wore and it wasn't exactly tropical in here. Davis ran to her. Maybe he was the one who should have brought a coat, but all he had one was pajama pants and a t-shirt.

Her eyes went wide when she saw the two of them and Davis didn't know who she was happier to see at the moment, the guy she said she loved or the guy who had the power to burn this place down with his eyes. It didn't matter. There was a key on the ground. Lex had either left it here to taunt her with it or took off running when he heard them.

“Davis . . .” she crawled to him when he opened the cage door. She wasn't terrified, but she was cold. He pulled her against him and tried to rub some warmth into her while Clark looked on with a chewing rocks face that made it clear he didn't approve. Chloe's outfit – or lack thereof – probably didn't help. Davis wondered what Clark would do if he had his job, run away and blush every time he had get to someone up off their shower floor?

Chloe pulled back and for the first time Davis noticed she was a little unsteady. They've given her something. Davis was about to demand what when a door at the other end of the lab swung open.

He should have known getting Chloe back wasn't going to be this easy.

A slender figure strode through the doorway, bald head glowing in the halogen lights. He wore a suit and walked like it was plate armor. Davis stared him down over Chloe's head. He'd kidnapped her. It wasn't Doomsday inside him urging him toward violence this time.

Lex didn't seem to see him. His attention was all for Clark. “So you found her. Did you think I just happened to leave that key lying around? Petty oversights haven't gotten me this far.”

Clark took a step toward him. “What are you talking about?”

“I have you right where I want you, Clark.”

Clark stiffened, almost a good half foot taller than Lex Luthor. “I won't let you study me. I know that's what you've always wanted.”

Lex grabbed Clark by the front of his red coat and tossed him into a wall full of glass shelves like a human bowling ball. “You don't know anything about what I want, Clark, and how could you? You're not even human.”

Clark went stock still in the middle of dragging himself up from the broken glass. Lex somehow had gained the power to hurt him, but that wasn't what shocked him, not the pain of flying halfway across the room or the blood running from a cut on his cheek. Lex knew. Clark's eyes went straight to Chloe and her face crumpled. Lex had learned the truth from her, or at least that's what she believed. Davis highly doubted it. Chloe was too loyal, even to someone who had betrayed her in the worst way.

“You don't know what you're talking about,” Clark faltered in a panic. “Aliens, spaceships. None of that makes sense, Lex.”

The words just bounced right off him. “I never said anything about aliens, Clark. But now that you mention it.” He bent down and picked Clark up by the throat, his long legs dangling like a ragdoll. “The shady adoption, my father's interest in you. It all makes sense now.” He gave Clark another toss into the wall beside Chloe's cage. Davis covered the back of Chloe's head on instinct as sheet rock and paint chips flew toward them. The impact of Clark's body made a dent.

Clark's eyes went big where he slid down to the floor with his legs in front of him. From the little Davis remembered of their fight in Fortress Clark hadn't looked this disbelieving. Being thrown around by a monster was one thing, looking up at the violence in the eyes of your human friend was something else. Clark actually looked halfway heartbroken. He never thought the two of them would come to this.

“What are you doing, Lex?” he rasped in a thin voice. He was breathing hard. Davis hadn't seen that from him before.

Lex hadn't broken a sweat. “Fulfilling my destiny. Our whole lives have been building toward this moment, Clark. The day we met, the meteor shower, that painting on the Kawachi cave wall . . .”

Clark swallowed hard. Apparently the painting meant something. “It doesn't have to be like this. Nothing's set in stone. Ask, Davis.”

Lex barely glanced at him. “I think I know all I need to about Davis Bloome.”

Davis glanced at Chloe kneeling next to him, but she was just as shocked by all this as he and Clark. “What's that supposed to mean?” he turned back to Lex.

Lex's eyes went to Clark, on his guard for when he regrouped or healed himself enough to get up again. “Atonement, redemption, all those good intentions. Your need to play the hero and do good in the world. You could have turned yourself in for what you've done, the bodies you buried, but why waste the power you have when you could save the world? I have to say, it does make a lot more sense. It's refreshing knowing I'm not the only one who sees the shades of grey.”

Where did he learn all this? Davis glanced at Chloe once more and she lowered her head. “What did you do to her?” he demanded.

Lex began to pace. “Chloe and I took a little walk down memory lane. You see, Milton Fine taught me a thing or two and he's left his mark on her. It was quite a slide slow, the normal life the two of you try to have after you literally stole away your bride. I guess a good blood bath is what does it for the modern woman these days.”

Davis opened his mouth. That wasn't who had ruined Chloe's wedding. That was some Kryptonian programming so he would take Chloe to the Arctic for the computer construct to possess so it could transform him for good in an ice cocoon. He'd been trying to work and keep his mind off her that night. He had no idea the connection between them came down to an alien plot to destroy the world. He just thought he loved her. He should have known. It wasn't like him to go kissing a girl who said she loved another man, even if he didn't believe her. Then again he couldn't have been thinking straight, manipulated on that level.

He tried not to think about what else he could have done. What if the computer construct wanted the Destroyer to have offspring, to start some kind of army in order to wipe out humankind. His stomach turned. He couldn't think about it.

Lex wasn't done talking anyway.

“But you're nothing more than a tool.” His eyes hadn't left Clark and Clark hadn't moved. “It's you that got my attention. Milton Fine had a lot to show me. I know now, it's so much worse than the lies you've told, over and over every time I looked at you. It's more than your little secret has stolen from me – my father, Lana, weeks of my life in Belle Reve. I've seen everything you've done. Days mysteriously reset, four years of Chloe's life wiped away on a whim . . . If you'd do that to someone you care about I shudder to think what you'd do to the rest of us.”

Davis felt like throwing up. He'd learned all this from Chloe's mind? And who the hell was Milton Fine? He put an arm around her and pulled her against his shoulder. He had to do something worthwhile with his hands if he couldn't get them around Lex's throat.

Clark pushed himself to his feet. “I did care about you, Lex. But you've gone too far.”

Lex casually backhanded him aside. “I'm done with your lies, Clark. It's time to end this. It's time to be the hero of the story.”

Davis stared at Clark sprawled on the ground. What had Lex done? What did that mean? Where had he gotten the power to hurt Clark? Davis got to his feet. It didn't matter. He had to do something.

Clark seemed to know. He saw him rise and shook his head from where he'd landed on his back. “Get Chloe and get out of here. This is between me and Lex.”

It wasn't anymore, not after Lex and this Milton Fine had hurt Chloe. But Davis had come to get Chloe out of here. She didn't have powers like him and Clark. She needed him. Chloe looked like she wanted to object, but maybe a little bit of what Lex had said was at work here. Maybe this was Clark's way of earning her forgiveness. Or maybe Davis was reading too much into it. At the moment Clark didn't have eyes for anyone but Lex.

Davis grabbed Chloe by the arm and hauled her toward the door they'd come through. They had to hurry. Lex might be telling the truth about luring them here to try and destroy Clark, but Davis wasn't willing to take chances. His people might come charging after them and Lex had dozens of people.

He pushed Chloe to go ahead of him and she ran, high-heeled marabou slippers and all. The facility was huge and they didn't have time to slow down. Davis ran after her. His leftover abilities let him see in the dark better than any human could and maybe he should have gone first to make sure she didn't fall, but if someone was coming after them he wanted a chance to fight them off so she could get away.

He heard Clark's voice in the distance, and then Lex's, and then another crash. Davis had a vain hope the farmboy could talk him down. There was something naggingly familiar about Lex and it told him he hadn't always been the bad guy. More glass shattered and Chloe turned to look back over her shoulder. Davis shook his head at her.

“Keep going.” She couldn't do a thing to help Clark unless she counted getting herself killed.

They ran through a labyrinth of hallways, turning sharply through the building and lit by very little light. This must be the top secret way. The places Lex hid whatever he did in this lab from the inspectors. Good thing it doubled as a suitable escape route.

Chloe's legs gave way after she'd gotten to the bottom of the third flight of stairs. This wasn't the way they'd come in. There was a door with the word 'tunnels' marked in red that evidently led under the city. Davis opened it and helped her stagger inside. She sank to the floor when he closed it behind her and he knelt down in front of her on the dirty unswept tile. A lot of foot traffic had come this way, but he didn't hear anything from either direction now.

It was dark here even for him. He couldn't see much but the outline of her and the brightness of her eyes, but he could hear her breathing. She leaned her head back and pulled her slippers off.

“Whoever invented these things should be hanged. Please don't tell me you find them sexy.”

Wasn't that the point of wearing them? He hadn't thought of them as sexy or not. He looked past all that with her. But even though he didn't care about the slippers right now, he was smart enough not to answer yes or no.

“What did they do to you?”

She pushed her hair out of her face. “I'd forgotten just how deeply Lex was in bed with Brainiac.”

“Brainiac? What does he have to do with this? I thought Clark got rid of him.”

Chloe shook her head. “It's not that easy, Davis.” He waited for her to say something more, but she didn't.

“Chloe . . .”

She didn't answer, just sat there grim-faced. She knew what was happening up there. She knew what Lex had done. Maybe she wasn't ready to talk about it yet. Davis swallowed. Getting her out alive was more important anyway and she needed to catch her breath.

He smoothed some of her hair down and she tilted her face up toward him. She still hadn't let herself relax and something about her seemed to wind up tighter when her eyes met his in the darkness. This was the part where he was supposed to say he was sorry for pissing her off and that everything would be all right, but he couldn't quite get the words out. He was too busy curling his fingers in her hair and slipping his other hand around her back. He wasn't thinking about kissing her a second ago. He was thinking about possible side effects from what Lex had done and whether he should take Chloe to a hospital and the fact that her pulse was racing. But he touched the warmth of her and something happened. His mouth found hers in the dark and the fingers that were just supposed to soothe the worry or the cold out of her couldn't help clutching.

He could have lost her. She left because of something stupid and he could have . . .

He could have killed people trying to find her. He'd left Clark to deal with Lex. Maybe he wasn't cut out for this hero thing. A hero would have stayed. Maybe he was selfish. Maybe that's what made heroes, they shook off those selfish instincts and served a greater good. Maybe that's why normal people couldn't relate to them.

Chloe wrapped her small hand around the back of his neck, but she pulled back a moment later just enough to look up at him. “You know,” she half whispered. “I think I like it better when I'm being violated willingly.”

Davis smiled, despite himself. Coming on to him had to be a good sign that she'd be okay long enough to get out of here. “All in good time,” he said quietly. He meant to ask her if she was ready to start moving again, but his hands hadn't left her and her fingers began tracing patterns on the back of his neck like she was anxious and needed something to do with them.

He understood. Desperation, relief, adrenaline. But this wasn't the time.

Another crash echoed in the distance, something slamming into the floor high above them. It shook the building, even where they were partly underground. Davis went still. Was that Clark or Lex being thrown around up there? Lex . . . What had happened to him?

In the dark, Davis saw Chloe bite hard into her lip. He swallowed. He should go back. Clark could use the help. Regardless of what he had done to Chloe, she didn't want him getting hurt and he had helped find her tonight.

Another sound. Something breaking. Wood. Chloe froze where she knelt on the dirty floor. Davis ran a hand through her hair and said gently, “You can't help him.”

She nodded, reluctantly, her face strained in the dark. “I know.”

His hand kept moving through her hair. “I could go back.”

It didn't feel right, running away while Clark was getting hurt up there, but she shook her head. “No.” Her hand tightened on his neck and she leaned her cheek against his as though that would keep him there, warm skin a welcome contrast to the cold air. Davis' hand moved from her hair to her back. That pink satiny material was so thin. His hand slid down to her lap and he only meant to rub some warmth into her thighs where the cloth didn't cover, but his palm must have felt like fire compared to the chill in her skin. She turned her head so that her mouth touched his and the pressure of her lips wasn't light, but desperate for something, and considering how he felt about her he wanted to give it to her.

His hand ended up moving along the inside of her thigh toward the warmth between her legs that was, aside from her mouth, the only warm part of her at the moment. That seemed to be the right idea. Her free hand curled into his bicep and she kissed him harder.

Something else splintered upstairs and she climbed into his lap. Davis let her, hard the instant her weight pressed on his groin. She let out a muffled sound and then stopped kissing him long enough to murmur, “Just . . . distract me.”

This isn't the time, he wanted to say, even as he twitched inside his sweatpants with the thought of being in her. The dark room and the dirty floor didn't matter. But there was something . . .

He lifted her off him for the second time tonight, but this time he got to his knees, crawling up behind and pulling her back against his chest with an arm around her waist. No sense laying her on the freezing floor. She ground her body against the bulge in his pajama bottoms and angled her head back so he could kiss her. He did. He couldn't help himself. He couldn't stop himself either, despite the part of him that said it would have been better just to hold her while they waited for Clark. His free hand pulled that ridiculous pink slip up and she braced herself on the floor on her hands and knees. He slapped a palm to the ground to hold himself up and got his stupid sweatpants out the way with his other hand. His mouth drifted to the back of her neck and she crouched down and offered herself, whimpering when he put himself inside in one quick motion. He had to grit his teeth to maintain control of himself. The heat of her was so familiar, but came as a shock every time. She sank down on her elbows and he held her to him with an arm against her hips, pushing deep until the heat of her sheathed him from tip to end.

The noise upstairs rang in the background, glass shattering and wood crashing to pieces, and he tried to block it out. Davis thrust and let the warmth of her squeeze at him, soaking up the sound she made as he hit the right spot inside. She wanted him to distract her and that was part of the thrill, wasn't it? This thing between him and Clark. It wasn't a competition, but he could make her forget all about Clark with his cock. It was selfish, crude, but at the moment if felt like magic. He was only human and his soul was far from clean. He couldn't help what that power did to him.

The hand gripping her hip moved down, sliding into the flimsy thong underwear he'd pushed aside. She cried out when his fingertips caressed the wetness between her legs and her hips ground back against him in encouragement when he started to rub. He got the idea. Harder. He rested his chin on her shoulder, watching her mouth fall open and her hair bounce and the dark edge of a nipple peek out through the lace at the top of her nightgown. He groaned in frustration. No hands free to touch it, and too far away from his tongue. All he could do was soak up her quiet sounds and the wetness on his fingers and rub and pump his hips into her until she cried out, “Davis,” all he wanted to hear.

She came like a tiny earthquake, in tremors and broken sounds, once and then again. He joined her the second time, clawing at the floor and almost losing his grip on her as he shuddered hard. Had he really thought they'd been doing this too much? He couldn't get enough.

Everything went quiet when the rush of euphoria calmed down. Davis didn't hear anyone flying around above them anymore. He let go of Chloe and sank back on his heels, fastening his pants and catching his breath. He looked over at her as she retied her robe.

They didn't have time to stare at each other. They had to make a decision. Either get the hell out of here, wait for Clark, or go back upstairs and see what had happened.

She got to her feet and Davis waited for her to choose.




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Saturday, March 28, 2009

penance

Reccing Note: Something happy you say? This is the continuation to the very amazing leap. I asked for this, too. I'm shameless. If its possible for the relationship between Chloe and Davis to have grown more since leap, it happens. And its so very beautiful.

davis pov.
3617 words. PG/PG-13. post-leap.
by paraxdisepink at her lj.

“You know,” Chloe paused in her vigorous potato peeling, “Clark used to do that for me at superspeed.”.




Painting had to be one of the suckier tasks on the planet. Heavy lifting he could do, the yearly physical for his job – pick a hundred-and-fifty pounds off the floor and carry a two-hundred pound dummy up a flight of stairs – but standing on a ladder edging with a tiny brush trying not to get Cranberry Zing on Chloe’s Swiss Coffee ceiling? That was tiring, and he hadn’t gotten to the roller yet.

Of all the colors in those millions of swatches, Chloe had to pick the richest, trendiest red, and damn the stuff went on bright. One little mistake, one crooked piece of taping or slip of the brush and Mediterranean flare would end up looking more like a crime scene. Thank God he didn’t have to attempt any DYI faux-finishing.

It was only one wall, the backdrop behind her dining room table, but so far the prep and edgework had taken two hours and they were running out of time.

Chloe didn’t seem too concerned with the ticking clock, or whether or not the place smelled like paint even with every window wide open in the place. She kept smiling at him from the other side of the kitchen counter, pleased with the sight of him reaching up with a paintbrush in a dirty, shrunken white t-shirt. Whatever made her happy, he shook his head, as long as he didn’t have to stand up here naked with a tool belt.

“You know,” Chloe paused in her vigorous potato peeling, “Clark used to do that for me at superspeed.”

Clark. Davis turned away so she couldn’t see the face he made. Considering what that guy had done to her he didn’t get why she would let him set foot in her apartment later tonight. Her cousin Lois, he could understand. Family was family. But Clark? Then again Lois and Clark were a two-for-one deal these days, apparently.

Chloe was only teasing him though, and maybe it was good she could joke about Clark now. In the month they’d been together Davis had seen her cry over him, seethe, listen to his phone messages that she never answered with an empty look in her eyes, and no wonder seeing as how he’d planned to leave her an empty shell of herself. It’d taken a lot for her to invite Lois over for dinner, to let someone from her old life into this new one where she’d created stability and control, and he doubted the fact Lois and Clark were together made it any easier.

Any hurt on that account didn’t bother him. Over the past few weeks, he’d gotten the run-down on her former life in bits and pieces. Chloe had loved Clark for a long time. She would never stop caring about him. But somewhere along the line she’d realized it would never work – probably after watching him go for every woman in his life but her. Being the back-pocket girl got tiring. That was something else Davis didn’t get. Who had someone like Chloe and went looking elsewhere? The guy didn’t know what he had.

Davis smiled at her over his shoulder, her blond hair glowing under the recessed light. Chloe wasn’t much for cooking – her staple diet consisted of coffee and muffins unless you fixed her something green and leafy – but she’d got it into her head that everything had to be right tonight. Thus the painting, the elaborate meal, his presence . . .

“There’s something to be said for a guy who takes his time,” he muttered, dipping the brush into the bucket.

Chloe giggled. Her happy giggle. She was oddly serene about tonight, considering. He felt bad; a small, selfish part of him wished no one was coming over and there was no wall to paint or dinner to cook so he could pick her up, set her down somewhere halfway comfortable, and . . . It wasn’t like he wanted all her attention and had to be the only thing in her life. It wasn’t like that at all. Sometimes though, he missed that feeling of completeness when he wasn’t warm and wrapped up in her, lost in the best of ways. Sometimes he felt like something was tearing him in half when he took his arms from around her and got up to get ready for work in the morning. Then he’d think about what he’d been, and it fit. It was less than he deserved.

He got down from the ladder and broke out the roller, poured paint into the pan, and went for it on the wall. The color had darkened to what she wanted where he’d already worked, but the new stuff, the splashes of bright red on stark white . . . He squeezed his eyes shut. The room got hotter and they came back, the images. Blood all over the ambulance, all over him. The body, or what was left it.

Davis threw the roller onto the drop cloth. He couldn’t breathe.

“Hey . . .” Chloe came up behind him. He hadn’t realized he’d sunk to the floor. She put her hands on his shoulders and studied the patches of red on white. She knew what was wrong. “We could paint that a different color,” she offered, her voice soft and full of hurt to see him like this.

He could barely handle that. He shook his head and pried her hands from him. Gently. Now he’d gone from blackouts to panic attacks. It wasn’t the first time, and he was starting to wonder if he needed Xanax or something to make them stop. But Xanax did nasty stuff, and it wasn’t right to pop a pill and block out what that thing had done whenever living with himself got too hard. The people its victims had left behind didn’t get that luxury. He’d thought about asking Chloe to help him track down some names, but in the end it all felt useless.

Chloe was staring at him, her green eyes round with worry. He wiped the sweat from his forehead and snapped himself out of it.

“No.” He got up. “No, it’s okay. It’s okay. It’s just . . .”

Chloe liked red, and it was her apartment. He didn’t expect her to give up anything for him. It wasn’t her fault he was messed up.

He retrieved the roller, and went back at the wall with a little more force than necessary.

**

He’d showered, changed, and sautéed eight chicken breasts by the time Clark’s red truck pulled into the parking lot out front. Davis glanced toward the bathroom, where Chloe was doing something fairly time-consuming with her hair that involved a spray-in product and a flat iron – which was odd because it came out in short, great big curls. At the moment, Davis didn’t care if she was dying it purple; he didn’t want to be the one to answer the door.

“Chloe . . . “ he called out when Lois stepped out of the car, rummaging in the drawer for the salad tongs. Clark followed on the driver’s side, holding the door open for someone else to slide out after him. Another guy – red hair, slender, about six feet tall. Davis turned away from the kitchen window.

Oh shit.

“Chloe!”

She came out putting her earring on, and took a look outside for herself when she read the anxiety in his face. “Oh my god!” She pushed her hair behind her hair, turning her back to the window in the same way he had done, practically radiating guilt and panic.

Davis looked down at her where she stood against his shoulder. “You didn’t tell them about us.” Why else would they bring Jimmy? Knowing Lois, she’d cooked up a scheme to bring him tonight in the hopes of getting the two of them back together.

Chloe flailed inwardly, stuck her lip out, and put a hand on his arm when she got a grip on herself. “Davis, I don’t need anyone’s approval or permission to be with you,” she insisted a little more defensively than she had to. “You’re a part of my life now and they have to accept it.”

He didn’t ask if his presence was some kind of carefully orchestrated payback for Lois dating the guy she’d loved. He knew better than to go down the ugly road of wondering whether he was the rebound guy, so he nodded and handed her the salad tongs.

“I didn’t think they’d bring Jimmy,” she went on. “I mean . . .”

She didn’t have to finish. Davis knew how she must feel, cooking dinner with the guy who’d put her husband in the hospital. Losing the girl you loved was hard enough without throwing salt on the wound and he’d gotten the impression Jimmy hadn’t taken her leaving well. Davis opened his mouth to say he could hide under the bed if that made tonight easier for her, but the door bell rang before he got the chance.

“Okay,” Chloe steeled herself with a deep breath and straightened her hair again. “Everyone’s just going to have to be an adult.”

Davis knew he should try to comfort her, reassure her, or at the very least agree, but he walked with her to her front door with what felt like lead in the pit of his stomach, and when the door opened he didn’t see a friend, and ex, and Chloe’s cousin; he saw three people that would probably emphatically agree he was better off dead.

Clark’s mouth was the first to fall open, his blue-green eyes shooting past Chloe and fixing on Davis, hard. “Davis,” he said with the expected contempt. “What are you doing here?”

He swallowed. He wanted to grab Chloe in case Clark got it into his head she needed another memory reboot for her own good. But he kept his hands at his sides. Lois and Jimmy likely didn’t know about Clark’s little executive decision, and coming off like a possessive jerk wouldn’t help Davis’ case any.

Chloe drew herself up, something she did surprisingly well considering how everyone else in the room towered over her. “Davis and I have been . . . seeing each other,” she announced with very little faltering.

Pretty mild way of putting it. He stayed over most nights and paid for the groceries. Clark caught on, and his expression went from too-pretty farm boy to a hard mask. “How long has this been going on?”

Chloe made to answer, but Lois glared at him before she could. “Oh chill out, Smallville, it’s just Davis. It’s not like Chloe’s shacking up with a serial killer.” She grinned triumphantly when Clark looked ready to swallow his tongue and turned back to the two of them. “So what’cha been doing these days, Dimples – besides my cousin?”

Davis stared at her in disbelief. Not the classiest thing to say in front of Jimmy. In fact, it was worse than that time she’d stabbed him. In her own way, the woman was just as scary normal as when she’d been possessed by his mother.

Chloe, face red, cleared her throat. “Why don’t you guys come in and sit down,” she offered more steadily than he could have managed at the moment.

All this time Jimmy didn’t say a word.

They ate at her new square table once the bread finished baking, Chloe at the head and Davis at her right, facing Lois and Clark who sat side-by-side. Jimmy sat at the foot, that deep red wall behind him. He showed no sign of his injuries, no sign he was on anything, none of that stoned out of his mind watch the ceiling fan spin for an hour vicodin look. Chest wounds were a bitch to heal. It was a wonder he didn’t get hooked on the stuff. But that rich red color . . . Davis closed his eyes. He had no memory of tearing him open, but he could imagine it, the blood leaking out, the pain, Chloe terrified . . . And Jimmy had no idea he was sitting across from the guy who’d done it, passing him the salad bowl like nothing.

He opened his eyes when he felt Chloe’s hand on his arm. Lois and Clark were staring at him.

“You okay there, Dimples?”

Davis blinked. Lois looked genuinely concerned, but . . . He wondered if he’d ever get comfortable around her. He made himself nod. “Yeah. Yeah I’m –“

“The paint smell,” Chloe broke in for him. “It gives him a headache.”

Clark rolled his eyes, unconvinced, but he seemed determined not to piss off my Chloe by pressing. In fact, he turned the conversation to asking about her job and her new life with special warmth, a guy who wanted real bad for a woman not to be angry with him anymore.

Chloe answered him, but with something short of her usual enthusiasm when talking about articles and investigations. Lois chimed in, babbling about strange events in Metropolis and a mystery hero. Davis couldn’t believe it. She didn’t know about Clark. How did you have a relationship with someone you couldn’t tell the truth to? How did you even have a conversation? He looked at Jimmy across the table, against that backdrop of deep red. Chloe had lived her life like that, so had he to some extent. It was a wonder they hadn’t all lost their minds.

He turned on the basketball game for Clark and Jimmy when dinner was done, when Lois and Chloe went off to investigate every new thing in her closet, talking in low voices. Clark didn’t drink, but Jimmy took a beer, and not knowing what else to do Davis sucked it up and sat on the couch with him.

Jimmy didn’t look up from the game until Clark went to the bathroom.

“So you ran off with my girl. After you brought her home that time I didn’t think you were that kind of guy.”

Okay. He deserved that – He deserved a lot from Jimmy – but Chloe didn’t. And “his girl” had a name. “Look, she’s not a possession.” That didn’t help. Jimmy didn’t look any less wounded or accusing. Davis sighed and tried again. “I doubt Chloe’s leaving had anything to do with me. Honestly, I think she thought she was doing the right thing by you, and from what I can see she did.”

He couldn’t say anymore without touching on all that had happened to Chloe over the past few months, the mounds of secrets she kept. Jimmy wouldn’t believe him anyway; he blew him off with a “yeah right” and took Clark’s place now that the bathroom was free.

Clark took his turn while he was scraping dirty plates into the garbage disposal, setting his on top of the stack Davis had made, as good excuse as any to get in his space.

“So you’ve got Chloe convinced you’re a good guy now.” He looked him over with eyes that had gotten a lot harder since they’d first met. He didn’t see a person, just the disguise that thing had left behind, like a snakeskin, something hollow that had no life of its own. Davis swallowed. He felt that way more often than not, but Chloe always pointed out that a mask didn’t feel guilt or pain, and God help him he lived and breathed both.

He didn’t back up. It was just instinct, something picked up real fast from living on the street. When another guy got in your face you didn’t back up. You didn’t play games either.

“Look, Clark, I know you don’t trust me, and that’s fine. But I gotta tell you I’m not exactly thrilled Chloe’s giving you the time of day either.”

That threw him off balance. He actually looked hurt – that someone would throw what he’d done in his face or that Chloe had confided in another guy Davis didn’t know. It didn’t matter; it only lasted a moment. “I did what I had to protect her,” he shot back, then turned the conversation around again. “If you ever hurt her . . .”

“You’ll what?” Kill him? Again? Could he blame him? In his own clueless way Clark cared for Chloe too. He scraped Clark’s plate off and nodded. “Please do.”

By the time dessert rolled around Chloe and Lois were the only ones talking.

**

“That went well, don’t you think?” Chloe said a little too cheerfully once everyone had gone.

Davis shook his head, loading dirty plates into the dishwasher. “Yeah,” he said dryly, “Clark and I didn’t kill each other, Lois didn’t stab me, and for an added bonus I didn’t put Jimmy in the hospital. It’s a start.”

“Davis . . . “ She wanted to laugh. He knew she did, but she couldn’t let herself because none of it was funny, and he got it; his gloominess frustrated her at times.

He put the last fork in the dishwasher and pushed the thing shut, exhausted after working twelve hours yesterday and getting up at eight in the morning to spackle, paint, and help cook. He wasn’t complaining. It felt good to be tired from honest work. It felt clean, human, better than walking around like a zombie after forcing himself to stay awake all week so he didn’t blackout and kill anyone.

Chloe followed him into the living room, settling onto the couch and slipping off the torture devices women called shoes. But she hadn’t come to sit down and rest after standing all day, not with that determined look on her face. She had something to say.

“You know, Davis,” she began with her hands folded in her lap. “I know you could have worked tonight. It would have been okay. Don’t get me wrong,” she rushed to add, laying a hand on his arm. “I’m really, really glad you’re here, but . . . I would have understand if you didn’t want to put yourself through this.”

He put his hand over hers without thinking about it, just a reflex. “I’m not like that, Chloe,” he shook his head. “Leave you by yourself so I don’t have to face people and feel guilty, pretend the past never happened.” He knew she felt just as guilty as he, about Jimmy anyway, and she was better than sinking to Clark’s level, lying and keeping whole chunks of her life from people she called friends. Davis didn’t say the last part though.

Chloe wet her lips. “I know. It’s just . . .” She glanced over her shoulder at the dining room behind them, too observant to miss him staring at her red wall all night, the one he’d refused to paint over. “You don’t have to punish yourself every five minutes. I see you do it, and . . .”

Davis looked away. Maybe she was right. But he didn’t know how to explain; the happier she made him the more paranoid he got about not letting himself off the hook, because honestly he could have easily forgotten what he’d been two seconds after she’d touched her mouth to his for the first time. He didn’t dare tell her that, not yet. It’d probably scare her off.

Having spoken her piece, she got up to finish rinsing pans in the kitchen, but he caught her around the waist before she could get very far. She was pretty content to let him pull her down beside him and put his arms around her, curling against his chest and smiling. He put his feet up on the coffee table, and after a few moments of peaceful silence prompted, “So . . .? Seeing Clark and Jimmy again . . .?” She couldn’t just sum up the evening in one light-hearted little comment and not say another word. That was exactly what she’d do if he let her.

Chloe bit her lip, thoughtfully, and didn’t look especially tormented. “I used to watch him with Lana and feel like I was missing a part of myself, like if he’d just turn around and realized he felt that way about me instead I’d be complete.” She frowned, then smiled at him. “Funny how that changes when you take a step back.”

He grinned and nodded. She didn’t need Clark, or any guy who didn’t know what he had. She was amazing all by herself. But Chloe wasn’t done.

“That reminds me,” she went on in a quieter voice. “There’s something I never told you. It’s kind of . . .” She stared down at the couch, and he braced himself. Between mass-murdering, coming back from the dead, and having dinner with an alien, he never knew what would come next. But Chloe was blushing when she looked up, and he got that this wasn’t the paranormal kind of something. “This is kind of awkward but, and it wasn’t Jimmy’s fault, it’s just . . .” She smoothed her hair and took a deep breath. “I once told Lana my first time with Jimmy wasn’t special – it wasn’t anything he did or didn’t do, just . . . Well it was – is. With you. You know?”

That caught him off guard. A normal person would melt to hear a thing like that from the girl he loved, but he felt like he could crack to pieces. He smiled at her – one of his few real smiles – and if he hugged her any closer he’d probably bruise her.

“Yeah,” he nodded hard, his voice a little rough. “Yeah I do, Chloe. Of course I do.”

She made a contented sound and twisted so she fit perfectly against him, resting a hand on his chest. Maybe she thought he was punishing himself again not taking this any further, but he didn’t know how to say that sitting like this, with her close and warm beside him was the most indulgent thing he’d ever allowed himself to do.

~ the end

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Reccing Note: This has become my Smallville Universe, no matter how the show eventually works out. Read and marvel at three dimensional Chloe and Davis and an ending which is not an ending, but the best way to start.

chloe pov.
8411 words. m/nc-17. bride and onwards.
by paraxdisepink at her livejournal. Drop her oodles of love!

Leaving Smallville was like tearing off a limb. Or better yet, chewing one off. I found myself so hellbent on getting out of a trap I didn’t realize how crippled I was until I tried standing again.

Leaving Smallville was like tearing off a limb. Or better yet, chewing one off. I found myself so hellbent on getting out of a trap I didn’t realize how crippled I was until I tried standing again.

I found an apartment – a hole in the wall in the less than privileged part of town – but considering my shortage in the funds department hot water and a leak-free roof made the place feel like the Luthor mansion. I dusted off my rusty old reporter’s hat and tried for a job with The Daily Star - lets face it I had no other useful skills. After a few weeks of eating nothing but Top Ramin and living in a cable-less void the job came through, thanks to some recommendations from a few old pals at The Daily Planet. Not exactly my dream paper, but journalism brought me back to much-needed familiar ground and a real writer would scrawl her stories on empty walls if she had to. Luckily it didn’t come to that. I guess the Star figured a girl fired by the notorious Lex Luthor on questionable grounds had to have a knack for uncovering something she shouldn’t have.

If only they knew.

I had to admit, my craving for the bizarre and unexplained had suffered a bit considering that my metaphorical Wall of Weird had expanded into a veritable museum over the years and that my passion for Truth carried the taint of hypocrisy given that I sat on the biggest secret in the history of civilization and could heal death with nothing more than my mind. That passion had died the minute I understood what exposing a real secret like Clark’s could cost him and saw a full-on funeral when I learned I had a secret of my own to hide. I’d die before I betrayed Clark and others like me, and I refused to be the one to yell “fire’ in the proverbial theater for the sake of breaking the story of a lifetime and making a name for myself. So I dedicated my poisoned pen to working toward Justice instead, and slowly my enthusiasm for my one and only craft revamped itself. The world was rife with corruption like Luthorcorp’s to expose, and everyday heroes who deserved a moment in the spotlight. Maybe as a planet we weren’t ready for super-powered extraterrestrials walking among us, but the world sure needed a strong dose of integrity and hope. As long as I worked for that I had a purpose. My job meant something again. It made me one of the good guys.

Star City was every bit as much of a concrete labyrinth as Metropolis, and I tried not to look like a lost Freshman on the first day of high school learning my way around. I found the delis, the Chinese, and of course the all-important source of the substance I thrived on – caffeine.

That’s where I saw him, one afternoon during my lunch break, sitting alone at a table outside, staring into an espresso I doubt he had any intention of drinking. My first instinct when I recognized his close-cropped dark hair and chiseled features was to run as fast as I could. Memories came back like lightning flashes, Clark beaten bloody and dead in my arms, the Fortress exploding in red light . . . Guilt washed over me, along with an ocean’s worth of apprehension. What he’d been . . . and God how close I’d let him get. I felt like I was lingering at the edge of a cliff all over again, a bare inch from plunging over.

If I planned on running, I missed my chance. Davis raised his head and those dark eyes met mine, and I felt their pull from across the sidewalk. I spent a small eternity flailing for what to do, but it was too late to hide and acknowledging him didn’t mean I had to let my guard down.

He lowered his face as I started toward him, and when his hand tightened around his coffee I thought he would be the one to make a run for it. My apprehension doubled. Did he have a reason to run? He definitely adopted the cornered animal look when I stopped in front of him.

“Chloe . . .” he breathed, half surprised, half pained, as though they very sight of me opened a wound. I bit hard into my bottom lip. But it was a little too late to count the hundred reasons why coming over here was a mistake.

“What are you doing here?” I tried to keep the question neutral. I didn’t exactly buy into the notion of random chance these days so long as Brainiac remained on the loose. Davis and I running into each other in the same city at the same coffee shop pinged my eerie coincidence meter big time.

Davis’ mouth moved, on the verge of either an explanation or an apology, but he couldn’t seem to find the right words and he shrugged instead, frowning down at his espresso as though it could provide as good an answer as anyone. I hate to admit, I’d never seen anyone look so lost.

“Just trying to live with myself, I guess.”

I did a mental recoil at that. I’d forgotten his knack for drawing attention to pink elephants, at least compared to the super-powered extra-terrestrial companion I’d left behind who was like the Oracle at Delphi in comparison. But it wasn’t like we could just make small talk and pretend the nightmare hadn’t happened. I looked both ways over my shoulder and pulled a chair out. Maybe I’d handed in my membership card to the save the world club, but I couldn’t let go of who I’d been and what I’d done.

“No more extra-curricular escapades of the dark and scary?” Mayhem and mass murder wasn’t exactly light-hearted, broad daylight, coffee shop subject matter, but how else could I ask if there was a monster in our midst ready to tear the city apart.

He shook his head. He looked so worn down, like he had a thousand-ton weight resting on him that he couldn’t shake off. I thought I’d seen Clark look that way a time or two, but never like this. “No, thanks to whatever you guys did – or something did. No more black-outs, no more waking up covered in blood. Not that I sleep much, just in case.”

Clearly he didn’t sleep at all. Shadows ringed his eyes and he looked paler than usual. How could I blame him? Who on earth would sleep soundly after finding out they took sleepwalking to a whole new mass-murdering degree?

“You super-speeded your way out of Metropolis in no time flat – figuratively speaking, of course.”

It wasn’t like Clark and I expected him to come to tea after Clark and Davis’ other half had fought to the death in the Fortress, and there was no way Davis knew the whole story of why he was standing here – sitting here – today, but part of me had never stopped seeing him as the friend I’d made before the weird and apocalyptic kicked in. I guess I’d expected a goodbye. Clark took his hasty exit as a sign of suspicion. Maybe I believed him. I didn’t know anymore.

Never one to beat around the bush, Davis heaved a sigh and pushed his espresso away. “Come on, Chloe, it was the right thing to do after the damage I’ve done. My first instinct was to put a bullet in my brain the second I was sure it’d do any good, but the more I thought about it, the more that felt like the easy way out. I’ve got to clean up the mess, make amends somehow, even the score, right?”

No one could blame him for wanting to end it all considering what he’d been, but my stomach turned at the thought of him blowing his brains out. I couldn’t tell him why, not when I doubted I’d done the right thing in the first place. Clark definitely didn’t think so.

“Davis, that thing didn’t even look like you. It took you over. You had no control.”

It was the truth, and it’d be cruel not to give him that little consolation when he looked so destroyed. But I couldn’t convince him, and once again he shook his head. “I tried telling myself that, Chloe. It doesn’t matter. That thing was part of me, when it committed those crimes, it was me in there. When it carried you –”

He stopped, and I looked down at my hand for the wedding ring that wasn’t there anymore. Maybe I could handle the pink elephants, but I wasn’t ready for the glaring red ones. I cleared my throat and tried for damage control on the dangerous and discomfiting factor.

“So . . .? What are you doing here?”

He glanced down at his leather jacket and white shirt. It was still strange to see him without his uniform. “Same. Drive an ambulance; pull people out of car wrecks and swimming pools, that sort of thing. I try to do whatever else I can. Help people, right wrongs. It’s like dropping pennies into a volcano. Feel like it’s never enough.”

All this sounded familiar. Only Clark didn’t have an inferno of remorse to fill, just his own survivor guilt. Or maybe he did, in his irrational Clark way. Both meteor showers had brought unimaginable destruction upon Smallville and the world around it, alien threats, violent meteor types . . . But none of us who knew Clark’s secret would ever think to blame him for any of it, not even Lana, who’d lost her parents because of him.

I left Davis to go back to work, but I couldn’t get him out of my head the rest of the day. I wondered if I should avoid that coffee shop from now on or whether I should tell someone back in Smallville he’d turned up. I wasn’t ready for Clark to rush in pointing fingers though, or to admit that sitting with him my heart had broken just a little at the misery he lived with. I decided to handle the matter my way, dust off my Scooby hat, and do some under the radar investigating.

Turns out Davis rented a house with three other guys, and while I couldn’t exactly line them up for exclusive interviews I did learn there hadn’t been any unsolved grizzly murders in the city in the three months since Davis had moved here and that one of his roommates had worked as his partner the entire time.

The Daily Star building stood right smack in the middle of downtown, a handy vantage-point for a girl who kept her eyes peeled to catch a glimpse of my very own beautiful disaster every now and then. Star City had as much 24/7 street crime as Metropolis, and at least once a day I saw the flashing red lights and heard the sirens of an ambulance peeling into the hospital across the street. Davis and his partner would rush out in their blue uniforms, running into the ER at a speed that could have rivaled Clark’s with gunshot victims and kids stabbed in gang fights. I saw him wander off more than once after he delivered them, peeling off bloody latex gloves white-faced and sick. I saw the memories of waking up to what the monster had done playing in his mind. I couldn’t imagine it, reliving a starring role as the villain in his own personal horror movie over and over.

I saw him when he wasn’t in uniform too, carrying boxes of toys, or old clothes, or food to the Goodwill a couple blocks down, and he went into the nearby cathedral once or twice a week. I saw a man who had become obsessed with good deeds, with filling his waking hours with every altruistic act he could think of.

Or maybe it was just another Brainiac scheme for my benefit. I couldn’t be sure anymore, so I did the smart thing for once in my life and maintained my distance.

That plan failed one evening after work. I was struggling to carry half my desk in a flimsy cardboard box down the back stairs when a low voice echoed from behind me.

“You know, they do make digital picture frames. Would make things a whole lot lighter.”

I jumped. No girl liked surprises on a darkened street growing emptier by the minute, and no one liked the feeling they’d been watched. I turned to find Davis leaning against the back wall of the Star building with his blue uniform jacket zipped up to his neck, flashing a dimpled smile that reminded me of the days when everything had been new and innocent in cute paramedic friend land – if it had ever been innocent. My mind raced with questions. What was he doing here? How long had he been standing there? And how did he know when I got out of work?

His smile slipped when he realized he’d startled me and his features fell back into that perpetually self-loathing mask. “I’m scaring you. I’m sorry. I was on my way to get coffee and I saw you coming through the door with your hands full. You looked like you were having a hard time, so . . .”

He shrugged and straightened to go. My gaze immediately dropped to my box full of old pictures of Jimmy and Clark, maybe because I couldn’t bring myself to look at the man in front of me. How could he get past what he’d been if I of all people who had a PHD in all things Krypton and knew better still treated him like a monster?

“No, it’s just . . . “ I balanced my burden on my hip and pushed my hair out of my face with my free hand, forcing out a nervous laugh. “I’ve been off in lala-land all day, and . . .”

Davis’ eyes went to my box and he nodded. I tried not to notice the mixture of guilt and disappointment on his face when he saw the pictures of Jimmy, but he didn’t say a word about Jimmy, or Clark either for that matter.

“How about I help you take those to your car and let you get home?” he offered instead, in a sad, quiet voice that knew I’d lied to him about being startled. It forced me to really look at him. His face was so innocent and so honest, a guy who just wanted to help somebody, who was desperate to, because he feared more than anything that if he stopped being the exact opposite of everything the monster was for half a second it would wake and tear its way right through him.

I was afraid of the same thing, for the city, for my conscience, and of course for Clark, but I found myself handing Davis my heavy box anyway. “Actually, I don’t have a car anymore. I . . . kinda had to sell it for rent money before I landed my job with the Star.” I blushed a little and tried not to look down at my shoes in embarrassment. Poor financial planning wasn’t my usual.

One side of his mouth curved up and he nodded. Maybe he thought I was getting more street-wise these days. Or maybe not. He glanced over his shoulder down the dark side-street I’d been prepared to head down before he’d caught me. “Well, uh . . .” He started to hand my box back, but I stopped him before he could.

“My apartment’s a couple blocks down, if you’d care to give a packrat in distress a helping hand.”

His face lit up. He hadn’t expected that. Neither had I, honestly. Maybe I was laying a trap for myself showing him where I lived. Maybe . . .

As we walked he told me about the calls they’d gotten that day, two mysterious accidents at the Luthorcorp plant which proved everyone’s favorite multi-national Satan hadn’t abandoned operation Clandestine Evil Lab by a long shot. I tried not to grill him for too many details, or blather on about the searing exposé I could write. I could almost pretend he was a normal guy I was afraid of scaring off with my old persistence and enthusiasm. But when we reached my doorstep on the ground floor I remembered all too clearly what he’d been.

“Well, Chloe,” he said in that low, deep voice that could melt a girl if she wasn’t careful, or maybe just send chills down her spine. He stared at me under the porch light with eyes that wanted to pull me into another dimension where there was just the two of us.

I cleared my throat and took my box from him. I didn’t dare invite him in.

We crossed paths more often after that, usually by chance – or what looked like chance anyway. My duties as up-and-coming reporter took me to newsworthy crime scenes, outside government buildings with bomb threats, and of course the ominous Luthorcorp plant. Davis was more than willing to feed me the inside scoop on any given incident, which he and his comrades-in-blue usually attained from the on-scene police if not firsthand, and police hated reporters. I met his partner, who spent more time looking down my shirt then he did resuscitating victims of the minor explosion at the plant that had us all gathered outside that morning, but the two of them saved three people that day anyway.

This was too easy, I kept telling myself. Davis was too clean, too perfect. I had to be falling into a trap.

A week passed without any sign of him, and as the days went by this gnawing wariness grew in the pit of my stomach. But there were no mysterious massacres or homicidal rampages throughout the city, and I did my best to convince myself Davis would come to me if he had a blackout. What else could I do, other than pray I hadn’t made the worst mistake possible?

I worked late one evening, and ever a worshipper at the altar of junk food decided to venture a few blocks behind the hospital and go for pizza. When I came out – stuffed with pepperoni, breadsticks, and more calories worth of Pepsi than I cared to count – I heard shouting and running footsteps coming from down the street. Someone called for help just as a car screeched around the corner. The shouts grew louder and a girl screamed. My heart began to pound

I slipped behind a concrete pillar and pressed my back against it, peeking my head past it just enough to make out what I could in the patches of shadows and the orange glow from the streetlights. The bright lights of another car blinded me as it sped up the road, either oblivious to what was happening or in a rush not to get involved. The girl screamed again. She was begging for her life, or someone’s life. A dark blur tore through the bushes at the far end of the parking lot, darting toward her at lightning speed. A gunshot rang out, and then another and another. I heard swearing, someone who couldn’t believe what they were seeing. The woman started to cry and the car peeled away. I could hear the teenager in the passenger seat as it sped past me, yelling at the driver to “get the fuck out of here before whatever that guy is comes after us.”

Everything went quiet. I let out the breath I’d been holding and stepped out from my hiding place, cold all over. I should have went the other way, done my best Clark impression and made my own hasty exit, but my out-of-the-ordinary radar beeped bigtime inside my head. Something had scared off the guys in the car – no, not just something. My worst fear come true.

Two bodies lay facedown on the sidewalk when I came closer, a dark distinctive stain between them. One was just another teenager holding onto to a yellow iPod in one hand, the other . . . The girl had crouched against the street sign, her hands over her eyes as she hyperventilated and sobbed. She wasn’t hurt, but the other two . . .

The smaller one scrambled to his feet and didn’t bother looking at me. He grabbed the girl by the arm and the two of them took off running. Maybe I should have called out to them, asked them what they’d seen, but I couldn’t take my eyes from the other figure on the ground, and didn’t I know the answer?

He rolled over and started to sit up, rubbing his eyes when he saw me. He’d always talked about not remembering the blackouts and waking up in strange places covered in blood, but he didn’t look the least bit disoriented now, or the least bit bothered by the blood smearing one side of his face down to his neck. I pressed one hand to my stomach, ready to spew up my dinner. How could I have been so stupid?

“Chloe . . .?” Davis looked genuinely shocked to see me and hurried to his feet, but his expression was more concern than horror at being caught in the act. “Chloe, what are you doing here? This isn’t exactly the best part of town as you can see. I just saved one drive-by victim. I bring in enough of them in my daily routine without adding your name to the list.”

I snapped my mouth shut on the verge of demanding when he’d dispensed with the hulking-out altogether and started prowling for victims with a human face. The blood was running from a mark on his temple, and another along his collarbone just above his shirt, and he clamped a hand around his left arm and sucked in a breath, in pain. He’d been shot. I ran over in my mind what he’d just said.

“You saved that kid,” I breathed in a mix of relief and disbelief, and the inevitable selfish vindication. “That car was coming for him and you jumped in front of the bullet. You weren’t –“

You weren’t going to hulk out and tear him to pieces I was going to say, but police sirens sounded in the distance and Davis had stopped listening, too busy glancing frantically over his shoulder in their direction.

“Look, I have to get out of here. I can’t exactly stick around and let them see me.”

He started to walk away, but I caught up to him. Why would he run when that kid’s brains would be splattered all over the sidewalk right now if not for him?

“You’re bleeding,” I insisted. “You have to get to a hospital.”

Davis shook his head and growled a little too fiercely, “No hospitals.” He relented when he saw I didn’t understand. “I don’t get hurt that easily, Chloe. I’ll be fine in a few minutes.”

I looked him over now that we had rounded another corner and my mouth fell open. The marks on his temple and neck weren’t minor graze wounds as I’d originally thought. The bullets had gone right through him and he was healing right before my eyes.

He saw what I was staring at and pressed his lips together tight, disgusted with himself. “Guess there’s still some of that thing in me after all. At least something will actually go through me this time, instead of just shattering.”

So that was why he didn’t want the police to see him, and no wonder the thugs in the car had made a run for it. They’d shot him three times and he hadn’t died. I’d seen this with Clark a hundred times, but with Davis . . . I stopped myself. I didn’t want to see remnants of the monster, or a potential re-run of our own little slasher flick. I wanted to see the guy who’d saved a kid’s life. Besides, Clark didn’t bleed. This couldn’t be anything Kryptonian.

“Is this a habit? Jumping in front of bullets?”

He nodded, reluctantly, as though it were something to be ashamed of. “It’s like I said, I try to do what I can. Sometimes when I can’t sleep, I walk the streets. I figure with enough bad things going on in this city there’s got to be something out there I can do, right?”

I nodded, proud. If someone had extra-human abilities, they should use them for good. God knows we’d seen that go the other way more often that not back in Smallville. “Sounds like someone has one foot in the superhero business.” The word seemed to shame him even more and he stared down at the concrete as we walked, shaking his head. My heart went out to him. In his book “hero” meant doing good for the sake of it, the way he’d been when I’d met him in Metropolis eons ago. Balancing the scales didn’t count. I laid my hand on his arm. “Why don’t you come with me and get yourself cleaned up?”

I walked him back to my place. It was funny or maybe just pathetic how my sense of caution went right out the window the instant he showed a heroic streak. But if he planned on re-growing any bony protrusions and tearing me to shreds a flimsy door and the paper-thin walls of my apartment wouldn’t save me.

He washed the blood off his face and neck in my kitchen sink, and then shrugged out of one sleeve of his jacket and washed his arm off too. The wounds had pretty much healed by then, leaving the skin of his rather nice bicep perfectly smooth. I was a little disappointed when he put his jacket back on, but did my best to conceal it as he took a seat at my kitchen table. I’d never shied away from the fact that I found him attractive, but this wasn’t a time for ogling.

I didn’t have anything but Coke to offer him, but he didn’t mind. He barely drank anyway, just stared at the can until I could feel him starting to brood again. God, he could give Clark a run for his money, but unlike Clark he had moping rights for the next ten years and his sorrows consisted of something more meaningful than a failed relationship with Lana.

I draped my coat over a chair and sat next to him. “You’re really taking this redemption thing to heart, aren’t you?” The giving to charity, throwing himself into his job, the nighttime vigilance . . . Lex Luthor often talked about fresh starts, but that usually involved more duplicitous projects that speared him deeper into the realm of Evil Overlord with a tinge of megalomania. This was different, actions coming from a man in pain who’d only ever wanted to help people and didn’t use an abusive past as an excuse for his transgressions.

Davis frowned at the tabletop. Looking at him, I could scarcely believe those chiseled features had ever morphed into a killer’s. “The day-to-day’s hard, Chloe,” he sighed. “I just want to go back and do whatever it takes to stop that thing from hurting anyone and I can’t. I can’t fight it, and I can’t change it, no matter how much I want to scream that animal isn’t who I am, that I would die before I killed anyone. I feel like . . .” He ran a hand over his face. “I’m not good with words, Chloe.”

He didn’t have to be. I understood. There was no peace for him, and there was no one to share the burden either. Everything he knew about himself and the world had been ripped apart, and he was alone now, and part of that was my doing.

I put my hand on his shoulder. He raised his head and his eyes settled on mine. Something in his face was pleading so badly for something to hold onto I couldn’t look away, and just when he had me he caught me off guard.

“Is this a good time to ask what you’re doing in Star City?”

I broke away from his gaze and lowered my head. Maybe it was the softness in his voice, maybe it was because I felt cornered by the question although I’d known it would come eventually. I touched my ring finger, only to let my hand fall when I remembered it was empty. I felt naked with nothing there, sitting so close to him. My only tactic was to force a smile.

“It was just time to get away, you know?”

He saw right through my hollow attempt at avoidance – he’d always had a talent for that – and he gently pressed, “From the man you married and your best friend?”

Clark. I sank back in my chair and folded my arms, on the verge of crumbling. I hadn’t talked about Clark to anyone, not even Lois. How could I when the secret identity safe version wouldn’t explain anything? I drew in a deep breath. Evading only worked for so long.

“Clark and I had a fight – sort of.” It was more like me losing it on him in the barn while he fumbled to deflect my anger with noble excuses and a blank, hurt expression. For the first time I’d felt like he really was from another planet. Why couldn’t he understand? Davis waited for the rest, and if he was sitting there ready to listen why not tell him? He knew everything – Brainiac, Krypton, the Fortress. Almost everything. “Remember that time I lost my memory and was hanging all over you like a second coat?” His lips twitched in the tiniest involuntary smile. My face went hot, and I ploughed onward before he could say anything. “It wasn’t amnesia – well not your garden variety anyway – and it wasn’t that drug that cured me. After you left, Clark took me to the Fortress. It was Brainiac, and in the process of curing me he made the executive decision to erase all the . . . shall we say classified knowledge I’ve acquired of him over the years. I woke up and four years of my life was gone, just like that.”

Davis’ eyes went wide. He’d learned to take the paranormal in relative stride, but this tested his limits. “Your best friend? He erased your memory?” Color flooded my face. I felt like such an idiot repeating this. “That’s what he did with you after I injected you with that sedative? Carried you off unconscious and erased your memory? Does he rape passed-out girls at frat parties too?”

I opened my mouth to defend him. I never thought I’d hear Clark’s name and the R-word in the same sentence, not the bumbling flannel-clad farmboy I spent five years of my life thinking couldn’t hurt a fly and who bolted like a cat when any other woman but Lana showed interest in him. But Davis had hit on something. My stomach twisted in a knot and I wished I could just sink down and disappear into the floor. It was either that or cry, and I’d done enough crying over Clark Kent in the past ten years.

“It’s just . . . I never thought I’d feel victimized by someone I loved so much, you know?”

“Chloe . . .” Davis’ eyes went velvet soft and he laid his hand over my own. A surge of something shot through me at this touch. His skin was warm and his fingers strong curling around mine. “What he did was pretty fucked up. Back in Metropolis I used to think I was the luckiest guy on the planet because you remembered I existed from day to day. I couldn’t imagine thinking I had the right to pick and choose.”

That wrenched a giddy smile from me, despite myself. I couldn’t help it; I wasn’t exactly used to being on the receiving end of that sort of flattery. “Who forgets a hot guy in uniform who finds homes for street kids?” I tossed back. I couldn’t keep from wondering what would have happened had I not worn an off-limits ring back then. Davis had been so dedicated to helping people, so kind, like some dream guy materializing out of the smoke that day of the explosion in Metropolis. That ring was the only thing that kept my feet on the ground, before the nightmare swept us all way of course.

He flashed me that unforgettable dimpled grin, and for a moment we stared at each other, well aware that he hadn’t let go of my hand and that the room had gotten dangerously warmer. “And Jimmy,” Davis prompted in his low, soft voice, “was he in on this too?”

I couldn’t shake my head fast enough. “No, no. Jimmy’s . . .” Jimmy’s the sweet, dependable guy I’d planned to spend the rest of my life with, a nice normal life with a dog and a job and maybe some kids. But who I was kidding? I’d once scoffed at “normal,” and I couldn’t keep using Jimmy just to go through the motions of something I wanted to hide behind now that my craving for the strange and unexplained had come back to bite me in the ass.

“You didn’t tell him.”

Those words hit home and I wanted to wrench my hand away. But it was just the guilt welling up again that I wanted to run from. The lies I’d told, the double life I’d lived in the same apartment as my supposed other half . . . “Davis, how could I? His life would never be the same, and I couldn’t be the one who brought him into this. Look what it’s done to us?” Turning over a new leaf and stepping back from Clark as I’d originally planned wouldn’t change anything. The secrets were still there, the walls I couldn’t let Jimmy behind, for his own good, for Clark’s own good. I couldn’t let him be second anymore either, marry one guy while another took center stage in my life.

Davis nodded. He knew better than anyone how learning the ugly and impossible truth of aliens and monsters and supercomputers destroyed your life, but he was content to let the subject of Jimmy lie. He’d never thought much of the two of us as a match anyway. “Do you think you’ll ever trust Clark again?”

I swallowed hard. It killed me that I had to ask myself that question. “I want to.” I wanted him to be Clark again, the Clark I thought I knew who understood where the line was and would never use his powers to hurt anyone. “After eight years of a front row seat to the Clark and Lana show I know what an idiot he can be when he thinks he’s protecting someone, but . . .“

“But you trust me.”

His hand tightened around mine, and I’d have to be blind not to see the hope in his face. I glanced around my apartment, overly conscious of the fact that we were alone. That was ridiculous. We’d been alone dozens of times before, at the Isis foundation, in his car. He’d been my friend for God’s sake. When I couldn’t remember anything but him I’d felt safe with him. A part of me knew that wasn’t all Brainiac’s doing.

I couldn’t answer, or maybe I didn’t want to answer. I just smiled at him and said in a small voice, “Davis, I’m glad you’re here.” I meant it. I didn’t realize how much I’d missed him, not the monster, but the friend I used to talk to, who saw through me and meant it when he promised he’d always be there, and not just when Lana ran off with another guy. I couldn’t let the monster claim that man as his last victim.

He smiled back, not his charming half smile, but a real smile that lit up the room ten times brighter than that light bulb he’d changed for me the day we met. That smile drew me toward him though I should have pulled away. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. His eyes had always been so melting, and his mouth . . . I didn’t need Brainiac to lure me, I was doing fine on my own. He closed his eyes, and I closed mine, and when his mouth touched my own I thought my knees would have given way were I not sitting down.

His hand came to my face to pull me closer and this time I didn’t stop him. I couldn’t, not when his mouth was so warm and full and soft and when he took his time tasting mine. His thumb stroked along my jaw all the while, so featherlight and gentle I shivered and melted all at once.

He was the one who pulled away, slowly lowering his hand from my face as though he had to force himself to do it. His eyes gleamed almost feverishly and his cheeks were flushed from kissing me. He looked absolutely tortured.

“I’m sorry.” His chair squeaked on my linoleum floor as he pushed himself up from the table. “This isn’t right. I should go.”

My heart clenched. I felt like someone was tearing off another limb when I had enough trouble standing already. I didn’t want him to go.

“Davis . . .”

I got up before he could make it to the door. There I was hovering at the edge of the cliff again, but this time I jumped off on my own head first. This little dance between us was ridiculous. I knew the truth; I saw it with my own eyes in the Fortress. I had nothing to fear from him anymore. I grabbed him by the shoulders before he could make a grab for the doorknob.

“Davis, stay.”

He didn’t move. He went rigid under my hands, afraid to come closer. I knew him. I knew why, and my hands tightened.

“It’s okay now. You don’t have to close yourself off anymore.” And I didn’t have to hide from the fact that this is what I’ve feared all this time, not the monster resurfacing, not the killer. This. “Stay.”

He stared at me, frozen and wrestling with himself. We both knew how much he wanted me, but his guilt and his hate for himself stretched like a great big ocean between us and for a moment I doubted anything I did or said could convince him to make the leap across. I let go of his jacket and waited.

My heart stopped when he gave in and came toward me, and my courage wavered on the verge of winking out entirely. Maybe I was making a big impulsive mistake here. Maybe this was the part of the movie where the monster emerged and tore me to pieces. He stepped forward and drew me close to him in one motion, wrapping one arm around me and then the other. His hand slid all the way up into my hair and I barely had time to latch an arm around his neck before he smothered my mouth with his again.

This wasn’t like the first kiss – the second kiss, actually – patient and tentative and asking nothing really but that I notice how he felt. I’d asked him for something this time and he was ready to give it to me exactly the way it was – no holding back. His tongue slid into my mouth and my head spun. I had to stretch up on my toes to give back as good as he gave, but I didn’t care. Clark would have to be on red meteor rock the size of Kansas to kiss me like that. Davis was starved for me, too starved for shyness and hesitation.

His arm tightened around my back and he pressed me close against the length of his body, and all of a sudden he was everywhere. His heart raced against my chest and his hips leaning into mine, and below that . . . After three years on and off with Jimmy a guy’s arousal wasn’t anything shocking. But this was different. I’d never been with anyone but Jimmy and we weren’t two fumbling teenagers as inexperienced as the other. This was raw, real hunger, and Davis wasn’t the least bit embarrassed that I could feel him hard and pounding through our clothes.

I wanted those clothes gone. I wanted more than just his mouth and the hot, sweet taste of his tongue against mine. I pushed his jacket off one arm at a time and got my hands under his shirt. He shuddered when my fingers grazed bare skin, all heat and hard muscle.

Before I knew it I’d kicked my shoes off and he was walking me backward through my tiny apartment with his arms still around me and his mouth sucking the skin behind my ear. We stopped in the kitchen doorway, where I arched my head back and let the wet heat of his lips trail down to my neck. My hands went to his shirt again, struggling to yank the pesky thing off him while my mind still worked. He had to pull away from me so I could twist it up over his head, leaving one side of my neck cold and tingling and begging for the pressure of his mouth back. But he didn’t move, too busy staring down at me, and I was too busy staring at him, bare-chested before me. Clark was a regular beefcake fantasy, but he was superhuman. This was all from working out and heavy lifting. I ran my hands down Davis’ chest, watching his face as I traced all that beautiful sculpted muscle. He closed his eyes and held his breath as though trying to keep himself from cracking to pieces. He didn’t stay still for long though. His warm hands took their time sliding up my arms, practically swallowing me with his eyes as he inched his fingers under the straps of my sundress and pushed the thing off my shoulders.

I stood there in my underwear, cold and burning up inside at the same time. He hadn’t taken his eyes off me, or his hands. They slid around to my back and unclasped my bra, and when it hit the floor the moment of truth loomed toward us at lightspeed.

Davis didn’t disappoint. His eyes burned into me and his face was so chiseled and intense I shivered at the heat coming from him. “I want you, Chloe.” He half whispered, half panted, his fingertips resting against my sides. “I want you more than Clark could, or Jimmy, or anyone else.”

I always shrank away from Jimmy when he talked like this. The guilt would swell up, the secrets, until I felt like I had to hide from him in my own skin. But I didn’t have to this time. I stretched up to kiss Davis and my hands went back to his chest, stroking over all that perfect muscle all the way down to the zipper on his jeans.

He kicked his tennis shoe off, and let his pants and boxers fall. My pulse throbbed like crazy now that I pressed against naked skin. At this rate, I was ready to drag him down and do it there on the floor if we had to, but he lifted me up, carrying me toward the bedroom, kissing my shoulder, my jaw, the top of my breast – anywhere he could reach.

I fumbled for a condom in the nightstand drawer the instant my head hit the mattress – leftovers from my Jimmy days – squirming for him to hurry up. Lightning may as well have crashed through me when he pushed into me. My eyes went wide and my mouth opened with a sound that wouldn’t quite come. He was so . . .there, scalding inside me, staring down at me with his eyes glazed over, breathing hard. I titled my hips up toward him and pulled him down onto my mouth again. My hands went everywhere when he started to move, over his back, his hair, the muscles of his arms. This wasn’t like my fantasies of Clark or all those times with Jimmy where I only felt the pleasure through the wall of guilt and the secrets I kept. There wasn’t a wall, just Davis, pushing as deep in me as he could get and kissing me hard, devouring me inside and out and throwing himself into this like he’d never get the chance again.

I ended up flat on my back with my legs tangled around his, my mind spinning from a climax that should have blown the top of my head off. He collapsed on top of me, panting for breath, and when I uncurled my fingers from his shoulders I saw that I’d left red marks on his skin. I felt so . . . I didn’t have the word. Like I was looking up at the precipice I’d jumped from only to find the fall wasn’t so steep after all, or better yet like a little kid who’d conquered a fear and went around clamoring let’s do that again! while the grown-up part of me choked up at the risks all over again.

Davis rolled off me with a small shudder and a low sound in his throat. I missed him inside me the minute he was gone, in the little tingling aftershocks and slight soreness as I stretched out. He sank down against my side and draped an arm across me, looking over at me with the most disarmingly dazed smile.

“I feel like I’ve died and woken up in another life.”

I smiled too and let my arms settled around him, but the afterglow dimmed a little. There was still that one thing I hadn’t told him

“Funny you should say that . . . “ I laughed unsteadily.

He caught on, as he always did, and I could feel him bracing himself for another blow to his comprehension and sanity. That left me no choice but to tell him. I had no reason not to. I didn’t have the right not to. Besides, adding another brick to my castle of secrets was the last thing I wanted. I rested my head back against the pillow and drew a deep breath.

“When you were separated from that Ultimate Destroyer thing in the Fortress, you didn’t survive.” We didn’t exactly know how that separation had happened. We didn’t know what he was, part phantom and part human or an elaborate hybrid of genetic matter and Kryptonian DNA. Either way, he had only been part monster. One minute he and Clark had been embroiled in a rematch in the Fortress, the next . . . Clark had struck the killing blow, with another dagger Jor-El had given him. Only the Fortress had exploded in eerie red light that had somehow sucked the Destroyer into the sky. Brainiac, Jor-El had explained to Clark afterward. He had retracted his ultimate weapon before Clark could destroy it, to use it again and let it evolve in a more powerful form.

I’d found Davis crumpled on the ice, lifeless and covered in blood from the blows Clark had dealt during the battle – his own blood, just like Clark after their first fight. My arms tightened, and my eyes watered. Davis had looked so broken there in the cold, the Ultimate Destroyer’s last kill.

He was looking up at me in confusion. I swallowed the lump in my throat. “I brought you back,” I told him. I brought him back just like I had with Clark. “It’s something I can do, heal people.”

His mouth fell open, and he pushed himself up on his elbows. But it wasn’t my meteor power that stunned him. “You saved me?” His eyes went so wide, like he was seeing me for the first time and I was a saint or an angel or . . . “Why?”

Well that was the million dollar question, wasn’t it? I didn’t exactly stop and dig for the inside scoop at the time. I just ran to him and reached out with my gift.

You told me if I found real love to hold onto it, a part me wanted to answer. The rest of me froze. Was that even a word I could use when it came to him?

My hand came up on its own, and I stroked his cheek with my fingertips. “Davis, I saw the man you were,” I told him gently. “You were one of the good guys. You deserved a chance.”

He closed his eyes and leaned into my touch so easily I don’t think he was aware of it. The emotion flooding his face was ten times stronger than the raw need we’d just satisfied.

“I’m going to try to live up to that, Chloe,” he murmured. “A guy doesn’t get that kind of second chance every day.” I couldn’t do anything but smile at him. Protecting kids on dark streets and saving lives day after day was a good start.

He lowered himself on top of me, his mouth settling on the base of my throat and when I didn’t stop him he took his time moving steadily lower. I let my eyes fall closed. No one had ever kissed me like I was made of solid gold before, and I never thought anyone who knew the whole truth would. My breathing quickened when he didn’t relent, and I twisted under him. Any lower and Davis would have to put his CPR skills to good use.

And speaking of reviving, maybe it was time I gave myself a chance too, instead of pushing my dreams aside out of some idiot belief that standing in Clark’s shadow was the only way to do good in the world, or that if I showed him enough loyalty he’d finally notice me. That didn’t mean I had to stop caring about him. I ran my hand through Davis’ short hair and whimpered at the wet glide of his tongue across my stomach. Maybe it was time I gave us a chance. Everything was easy with him and so clear-cut. How could anyone hold him accountable for something inside him against his will? And maybe Clark had my dream job at the Daily Planet and careened toward something with my cousin at super-speed, I had my own career at the Star ahead of me and a guy who’d shown his own heroic colors. Maybe it was time we made our own Lois and Clark story.

~ The end.

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